no money? then you are one useless motherfucker..

thats how i always feel ever since.....well you know. what happen and all. i changed school. the school is awesome. the students? well i'll talk about that later. all i know is i need to be on my way to that place. The place where i dream of it ever since i was a kid. but hey, no money no talk right? fuck everybody. fuck the whole wide world.

Hello lonely blog

I am not gonna give up. thats what suddenly float into my head.I suddenly feel like whats the point of having a life if all you gonna do with it is bitch and moan? So earlier today, i made up a timetable for my daily life. I'm not a big fan of timetable but i thought i give it a shot.I feel a bit positive afterwards.Positive for a girl who is sick and didn't go to school for three days.*sigh* im not lazy, i just am sick..and i don't even know the reasons why.

Anyways, i spent the three days sleeping. I know. weird but thats what i do. I didn't actually surf the internet..half of it is because i get all dizzy and weird after surfing the internet and half of it is because the connection is slow..shrug..a teenager remains a teenager eh? I'm actually sick typing these words..what's wrong with me? im so fragile.

coughweak

"If for one minute you think
you're better than a sixteen year
old girl in a Green Day t-shirt,
you are sorely mistaken.
Remember the first time you
went to a show and saw your
favorite band. You wore their
shirt, and sang every word. You
didn't know anything about
scene politics, haircuts, or what
was cool. All you knew was that
this music made you feel
different from anyone you
shared a locker with. Someone
finally understood you. This is
what music is about'' -Gerard Way

HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love this blog

even when there's no one

reading it

i love this blog

cause it let me be

the person i wanted to be

i love this blog

cause i can let go of everything

that's been bothering me

i love this blog

because its everything to me

hahahahhaha

im bored...but i l0ve this blog *cuddles* cause there's no one reading it, i can write everything i wanted to.[think happy thoughts eh?]

=D

THE FUTURE IS BULLETPROOF

THE AFTERMATH IS SECONDARY

ITS TIME TO DO IT NOW

AND DO IT LOUD

KILLJOYS, MAKE SOME FUCKING NOISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[i need an energy boost..haha]

nobody love me anymore.

i sound like a bitch but

nobody love me anymore

i think i was loved

but now its all broken

and the tear will shed

but im not that weak

im not that bitch

dont make me feel

that im a waste of space

a hopeless child

a fragile mind

please just let me go

let me go

let me go

let me go

HELLO ME!!

Long time no post huh myself? [lol]its the 10th of January 2011 and its the PMR year this year which peeps keep telling me i should/could get straight A's so no pressure rite? *wink* ehem ehem

so i finally get the chance to buy Danger Days [im so fucking happy bout that!]

and guess what else i find out? Avril Lavigne has a new album on march and the single is out now.its called what the hell and all i could think was wth?????

she is a fucking cunt .

*sigh*

the words to that song is just so sad.

its just so fucking fucked up

its just so fucking slutty

its just fucking ke$ha

heeee

5 more days till school re-open and i still haven't

#1-buy my uniform

#2- buy stationary

#3-check what class im in

#4-buy danger days

#5-destroy stupid effing zit

#6-buy wifi

oh and hamra said that im in fucking CEMERLANG!! can u believe that?? that means its not toooo late to rearrange my fucked up head and shits...anyways erm....i think maybe we'll go and buy my school stuff tomorrow which means that i can buy DANGER DAYS then!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeee

hey!!

its been ages since my last post huh? not like anyone is gonna miss me but ah well..nothing wrong with make believe rite?

ehem ehem

so i've been busy with pathetic stupid fucking real life and awesome amazing virtual crap [ twitter n tumblr...] and im just bored....schools out that means i can do whatever i want right? WRONG!

everyday i got to take care of my cousin's daughter a.k.a NyetNyet and i've got to help mommie with the cheese tarts and the house and the tensions...yea...im just so tired...but not in a bad way guess..but at least i haven't get school to piss me off...

anyway daddie got me a fucking DRUM KIT!!!!!! can u believe that?? i cant!!! he didn't actually buy it or anything but his boss give it for free[i know..its still hard for me to take all this in xD]!! so me and daddie dearest put it in my sweet lil bedroom..its really GORGEOUS! i take a pic of it but my phone is being a bitch rite now so i can't post it.=[

so me any sissy had fun w/ me playing the drum and she the guitar...we played a few of her songs and it was just AWESOME! it was a really good feeling and somehow the feeling of wanting to be in a band gets even bigger...xD

im really hoping that this end of ear holiday is gonna be a blast even if we wont be going to some fancy place or stupid money shit ass things...

and im thinking of doing a cover of a few songs or post ma songs on the net..i know i know that it soo overrated but i dont care and this time i dont give a damn about 'promotin' ma vids...coz lets face it.even if i force peeps to watch it they won't like/subscribe it rite? so yeah wtevr

and ermm im thinking of practicing my math stuff [i know im a nerd..xD] coz last exam i got a

fucking D! and i think my whole result is a fucking fucked up mess...mhmmm im not lying..

and erm what else? oh yea save up my lil money so that i can buy My Chemical Romance's Danger Days : the true lives of the fabulous killjoys .

yup their NEW 4TH ALBUM!! im so fucking excited for this album coz well thay're my fucking fav band in the whole wide world! i have NEVER been this excited for a CD.

and erm yea wait! i think imma post their Danger Days banner or somethin ...hold up..lemme check it--

yay! it worked!! duhh

xo,

N

ahaha

"MCR are the only people who will be able to survive a zombie invasion.

Gerard looks so pale that he will look unappetizing to the zombies,

Mikey doesn't have enough meat on him to please the zombies,

Ray's HAIR will eat the ZOMBIES,

and Frank probably tastes horrible with all his ink..."

hah!! too true!

okayyy al the shit i've said bout mychem's new album......i fucking take it back...i fucking take it back coz da new song is fucking awesome[just my humble opinion].....i just cant fucking wait for November 22 !!!!!!

yeah so i miss mychem is that so wrong?
so im afraid to hear the new song
im afraid its gone
the waiting is too long
what if it went wrong?
what if they turn into a pop whore?
no no let it go
im just too paranoid
it'll go on
whats wrong with my head?
is it so dead?
like my blood stained bed
its crimson red
im afraid i'll lied
when everyone does
why can't i find sumthing to rhyme?
does that mean i need to go back?
to the place where everyone's mad?
to the days where i feel so sad?
or the days when they assume im bad?
let's think not
and just cherish our thoughts
that MCRmy will fought
to the days that we thought
it matters not

this is the end

my brain stop working instantly after i read this article , http://s3.amazonaws.com/data.tumblr.com/tumblr_l8tpzjdqzJ1qd4ywdo1_1280.png?AWSAccessKeyId=0RYTHV9YYQ4W5Q3HQMG2&Expires=1284726636&Signature=7ZeqTQ1Md6YVL2IiSDQRSpQnH2I%3D

my heart crashed , my brain hurts

pop? FUCKING POP???

r u for serious???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if i've got a heart attack i will actually literally DIE!

yea yea
we're the MCRmy we should support them n trust whatever shit they're doing with their new album......tell me sumthing r u really selling out?


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AWESOME SHITS!!!

found a site for lolita's clothes and it's AWESOME! yea too bad im not from America or Canada or anywhere in between....mwahahahahahhha i like the dresses no i LOVE the dresses! Sis says that i can easily find all those stuff at Time Square..yea i can find some of it in TS but it's so effing expensive! and it's not even good quality [ well i don't really know bout the quality but.....erm...it's not the same from this shop's dresses! ] wait lemme try n post the pics

these are one of my favorite from the CLASSIC LOLITA 'SECTION'

These are two of my favourite from the PUNK LOLITA 'SECTION'

Two of my favorite GOTH LOLITA 'SECTION'

fuck the posers

i hate it when some people say that my chem is a sell-out n shits n stuff...so they grow up , everyone grow up.... that doesn't mean that they have forgotten their fans or their 'REAL' fans..that's just stupid! here's one comment on youtube that really gets into my skin

"MCR suck. Get. Over. it.

They saw fame and fortune and realised they really didn't give a shit as long as they got it in their pocket.

They did sell out, but they sold out to a million NEW mcr fans. Bullet was for the true fans. Sorry but... they've gone. No offence. BUT. DEAL WITH IT. They went ages ago."

just because some fans started knowing them n listening to their songs when THE BLACK PARADE come out doesn't mean that all of the new fans are fake.....wtf? just because u "real" fans know them b4 they were famous doesn't make u a true fan or a real fan. just bcoz u love bullets doesn't mean that ur the only one..many of the new fans dig out their old stuff n love it..that doesn't make them posers. what make a poser is those who once says that their life depends on MYCHEM but now listen to tokio hotels and miley cyrus n claim that they love rock n roll... sometimes u people r so close minded...so what if they don't write songs bout vampires anymore? everybody knows that nowadays vampires r just glittery fake ass shit..so what if they don't wanna wear an inch thick makeup anymore? it doesn't matter as long as they still believe in their selves , their music and their talents....fuck those people who think they're better than anyone else.....get over yourself hon.

omg omg i missed u!! i cant never leave it down i cant never leave it down!!!!

OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOW CAN I NOT KNOW THAT 30SECONDSTOMARS AND SMASHING PUMPKINS WERE IN SINGAPORE FOR THE SINGFEST!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHERE HAVE I BEEN??? IM NOT FROM SINGAPORE BUT I CANT BELIEVE THAT THEY'RE QUITE FUCKING NEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD!!!

SMASHING PUMPKINS + 30SECONDSTOMARS !!!!

WHAT NEXT? DID MYCHEM COME TO MALAYSIA AGAIN N I DIDNT EVEN KNOW IT????

--------->poor psychotic paranoid

the world is a VAMPIRE[ the real one , not the fake glittery shit ass vampire]

im addicted to SMASHING PUMPKINS!!

But its kindda hard u know to dig out their old stuff cuz there so many!

why was i born late? why can't i was born sooner? hurm.....still itz okay..

there's this one song that is kindda like the first song i've heard from them..its called BULLETS WITH BUTTERFLY WINGS~ awewsome!

n u know what? they were in Singapore yesterday or sumthing!! so kindda close but so far away!!!!! God i sound like a fucking groupie or sumthing...im not!

anyway , erm.... i don't really know what to write actually...let see.....oh yea...next week is the ujian penilaian 2 so i was just studying n im having a break now....or so i think...kay....erm...i dont know what to say/write! this is suppose to be my 'diary' cuz i can't find my real life diary rite? dunno~ well in my head rite now is full with smashing pumpkins stuff , photosynthesis , evaporation shit , solute n solvent shit , MCR , n some othe things that r just too many~ [huh? psycho~] kay im gonna go n listen to some songs [ avril's i really miss her old shit...cuz itz nicer and deeper n just awesome] n some mellon collie songs and erm study a bit...kay nitey i mean mornin'!!

xoxo

....

yeah yeah yeah daddy dearest..it's ALL my fault....im the one who's responsible for that shit , im the one who should this n that..yeah yeah whatever....im tired of all of this....I'm tired of being followed by ur beloved niece...I'm tired of faking my smiles...I'm tired of feeling tired...

Hello!

look what I've been GOOGLE-ing .. lol

I MISS BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!

exam exam.....so fucking hard...its on next week i think.....yea...oh god i don't wanna think about it....God this is so depressing

hee

hello there!

hahah(so much for being positive...but hey at least i didn't start this poat with complaint!! rite?)

erm....suddenly i feel like i wanna start all over again....I really really hope that Abah will get a job this month bcoz he really need to~

yea....i dunno.......

i think i'm just gonna stop thinking bout it for awhile and like really focus on my studies for this month becoz my mid-year-exam is like urm..17th of May n i still didn't study despite my "new year resolutions' hah.....

those are just fake... i never ever got to do what i wanted to do on my new year resolution list....wtevr....maybe i'll try for next year?

I'm just gonna go n check if i got homework or not n stuff.....

yea......

see ya!