Hello lonely blog

I am not gonna give up. thats what suddenly float into my head.I suddenly feel like whats the point of having a life if all you gonna do with it is bitch and moan? So earlier today, i made up a timetable for my daily life. I'm not a big fan of timetable but i thought i give it a shot.I feel a bit positive afterwards.Positive for a girl who is sick and didn't go to school for three days.*sigh* im not lazy, i just am sick..and i don't even know the reasons why.

Anyways, i spent the three days sleeping. I know. weird but thats what i do. I didn't actually surf the internet..half of it is because i get all dizzy and weird after surfing the internet and half of it is because the connection is slow..shrug..a teenager remains a teenager eh? I'm actually sick typing these words..what's wrong with me? im so fragile.

coughweak

"If for one minute you think
you're better than a sixteen year
old girl in a Green Day t-shirt,
you are sorely mistaken.
Remember the first time you
went to a show and saw your
favorite band. You wore their
shirt, and sang every word. You
didn't know anything about
scene politics, haircuts, or what
was cool. All you knew was that
this music made you feel
different from anyone you
shared a locker with. Someone
finally understood you. This is
what music is about'' -Gerard Way

HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love this blog

even when there's no one

reading it

i love this blog

cause it let me be

the person i wanted to be

i love this blog

cause i can let go of everything

that's been bothering me

i love this blog

because its everything to me

hahahahhaha

im bored...but i l0ve this blog *cuddles* cause there's no one reading it, i can write everything i wanted to.[think happy thoughts eh?]

=D

THE FUTURE IS BULLETPROOF

THE AFTERMATH IS SECONDARY

ITS TIME TO DO IT NOW

AND DO IT LOUD

KILLJOYS, MAKE SOME FUCKING NOISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[i need an energy boost..haha]

nobody love me anymore.

i sound like a bitch but

nobody love me anymore

i think i was loved

but now its all broken

and the tear will shed

but im not that weak

im not that bitch

dont make me feel

that im a waste of space

a hopeless child

a fragile mind

please just let me go

let me go

let me go

let me go

HELLO ME!!

Long time no post huh myself? [lol]its the 10th of January 2011 and its the PMR year this year which peeps keep telling me i should/could get straight A's so no pressure rite? *wink* ehem ehem

so i finally get the chance to buy Danger Days [im so fucking happy bout that!]

and guess what else i find out? Avril Lavigne has a new album on march and the single is out now.its called what the hell and all i could think was wth?????

she is a fucking cunt .

*sigh*

the words to that song is just so sad.

its just so fucking fucked up

its just so fucking slutty

its just fucking ke$ha

heeee

5 more days till school re-open and i still haven't

#1-buy my uniform

#2- buy stationary

#3-check what class im in

#4-buy danger days

#5-destroy stupid effing zit

#6-buy wifi

oh and hamra said that im in fucking CEMERLANG!! can u believe that?? that means its not toooo late to rearrange my fucked up head and shits...anyways erm....i think maybe we'll go and buy my school stuff tomorrow which means that i can buy DANGER DAYS then!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeee

hey!!

its been ages since my last post huh? not like anyone is gonna miss me but ah well..nothing wrong with make believe rite?

ehem ehem

so i've been busy with pathetic stupid fucking real life and awesome amazing virtual crap [ twitter n tumblr...] and im just bored....schools out that means i can do whatever i want right? WRONG!

everyday i got to take care of my cousin's daughter a.k.a NyetNyet and i've got to help mommie with the cheese tarts and the house and the tensions...yea...im just so tired...but not in a bad way guess..but at least i haven't get school to piss me off...

anyway daddie got me a fucking DRUM KIT!!!!!! can u believe that?? i cant!!! he didn't actually buy it or anything but his boss give it for free[i know..its still hard for me to take all this in xD]!! so me and daddie dearest put it in my sweet lil bedroom..its really GORGEOUS! i take a pic of it but my phone is being a bitch rite now so i can't post it.=[

so me any sissy had fun w/ me playing the drum and she the guitar...we played a few of her songs and it was just AWESOME! it was a really good feeling and somehow the feeling of wanting to be in a band gets even bigger...xD

im really hoping that this end of ear holiday is gonna be a blast even if we wont be going to some fancy place or stupid money shit ass things...

and im thinking of doing a cover of a few songs or post ma songs on the net..i know i know that it soo overrated but i dont care and this time i dont give a damn about 'promotin' ma vids...coz lets face it.even if i force peeps to watch it they won't like/subscribe it rite? so yeah wtevr

and ermm im thinking of practicing my math stuff [i know im a nerd..xD] coz last exam i got a

fucking D! and i think my whole result is a fucking fucked up mess...mhmmm im not lying..

and erm what else? oh yea save up my lil money so that i can buy My Chemical Romance's Danger Days : the true lives of the fabulous killjoys .

yup their NEW 4TH ALBUM!! im so fucking excited for this album coz well thay're my fucking fav band in the whole wide world! i have NEVER been this excited for a CD.

and erm yea wait! i think imma post their Danger Days banner or somethin ...hold up..lemme check it--

yay! it worked!! duhh

xo,

N