nice haircut huh?

urgh still can't get that song out of my head!!!!

wtevr......

da scince thing-y is almost finish....

juz need to start on my math homework n i'll be fine 44 da new year.....

attempt to cut my hair lol dunno what happen....

i was so pissed cuz i cant really rmmber what to do so i juz trim it...

haha.....then i style it with a ribbon [gothic lolita =P] n i FINALLY found the hair dryer!!! hahaha

bottom line = it was a GOOD day!!!


hahaha

im replaying the song!!

ok2

anyway im gonna watch the video once again so that i'll do it tomorrow....or maybe today...when everyone's asleep.....hmmm daz kindda gud rite??

lol


mybe...now all i hve to do is to find yesterday's video...

it aint that hard rite???
*gulp gulp*

lol

kay i'll go now~~~~


xoxoxox

uuhygtfdsasertgyhujk

im so depressed seeing sis depressed..

life is so not fair rite??

life is such a bitch

n now im fucked up

itz not even a week for the start of?>'o,mlk8po bhucfnjiokp[l;'.


WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH ME????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cant even type rite let alone do anything

god i wanna go to bed but ive got sumthing else to do...........................................










my life is a MESS....

!#@$%^$#@

in luv with 30 secs to Mars

=D im 1oo% in luv with 30stm's song "NIGHT OF THE HUNTER"

dunno y but it just kindda stuck in my head n i LOVE the song so wtevr..

haha

ok ummm im currently doing my stupid effin science homework...at least I got to say i'm doing homework when my mom ask so she didn't glare at me like i'm a lunatic....

aww gotta repeat the song (again!)

lol what can i say?
it's so addictive...

think i need to buy the album...
really nicee

huhu

kay it's replaying!

hmmmm
it is so hard to make your dreams come true isn't it??
so damn hard

i mean my dream is to be a great artist , hve my paintings on sum famous art gallery" wall & to be in a band with a sold out concert everywhere..
but it's so fucking hard to make it come true
so sad to think that ppl around the world can live their dream while here we are strugling to make it come true....

god to think that im gonna be in school for let see...ONE WEEK FROM NOW????!!!!!!!


damn i need to star doing all those homework!!!

curse the math teacher!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


*sigh*

okay need to get back to doing my effin science stuff

xoxoxox =(


p/s went to Borders the other day n i found THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! didn't buy it tho cuz its RM60!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

y oh y has it gotta be soo effin xpensive????!!!!

think im gonna buy at ebay....

life on the blank scene

i am so effin tired!!!

my head is spinning n im juz well tired!

i didnt finish my stupid effin homework n
to think that im gonna be lonely next year

god really

a LOT hd happen....

im juz sooo fucking sick!
dunno y but im sick as in really sick

i didnt practice my drum thing-y
i'm juz so caught up in my fairytale


i'm so BLANK

dunno wat to do

to think that all my effin 'frens'.........-

god i cant find the purrfect cuss word to use

sigh

im so tired

i miss mcr...

10 things for 2010 =D

change the psycho's blog skin


the new skin is "im not emo" n the skin is effin funny!!

lol

ok im makin no sense here.........

cant wait 4 the new year so that i can start the new plan......

shut the f**k up coz i noe wat u'r ab0ut to say!!!!!!!(??)

ok

here's the plan f0r 2010


#1 cut hair to emo scene hair n take effin good care of it
#2 get rid of fucking zits
#3 study fucking hard
#4 be a GREAT drummer
#5 be a GREAT guitarist
#6 ask no force dad to teach bass n be a GREAT bassist
#7 buy mychem's new album
#8 buy THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY
#9 practice drawing/sketching
#10 buy oil paint/oil colour

stupid bl0gskin!!!!!!!!!!1

the psych0 blog is still sh0wing "ph0t0sh0p. upgrade ur photocon or sumthin"

i mean like WTFH IS WRONG WITH U??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god help meeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

apple~ is in da h0use acting like she's a h0use cat or sumthin

urgghhhh!!!!!!!!!

tf is wr0ng wth u?

wtf did juz happen 2 da psych0 bl0g??!!!

it went all "photoshop" or sumthin

where is my ipod i tell u??!!!


god this is depressing

must be sumthin wr0ng with the skin

and it takes like 4evr to find the rite skin!

g0d this is REALLY depressing!!

happY enDinG

YES!!
FINALLY!!!

my bl0g is as g0rge0us as can Be!!!

lolZ


all im sayin is...YAY!!! my beautiful diary!!!

ok i've still got loads to do so nite!!!!


xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxx

omfg it is sooooo fucking damn hard to find a g0rge0us diary like layout 4 diz blog!!!

ok deep breath

alyaa im me & invite me 2 go out wif her,goh & andrea 2 ts.....
i only agreed cuz

#1 im soo freakin b0red sitting at home
#2 i wanted to escape(kind of)
#3 i wanted to fix da revenge bracelet
#4 i wanted to 4get the fact that i didnt finish my h0mework yet
#5 i juz wanna go out

ok
g2g n find g0rg0ues skin

wtf???!!!

wtf is wr0ng with this lay0ut??!!!!



aargghhhhhhh

ok2 im hepi!

think happy thots
think happy thots
think happy thots

HVGFGCKB CBG

HIGH ON CAFFEIN???(high on msi is more likely...)

get it?
get it?
u juz dont get it!!!!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im soooooooooo freakin lazy 2 clean diz freaking house......



u stupid motherfuck ER!!!



ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH



OK




IM OKAY NOW (I PROMISE)



WTF?????

im still hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy........
maggi doesnt count as real food.......
im so freakin hungry
a hungry nad is an angry nad!!!!!!!!!!!
practisin my butt off today....no we dont hve practice today......practice at home duh!

anyway ummmmm i so wanted a sold out concert!!!!!
weird i noe but i juz wanna be heard......
if next year at skool there's gonna be a talent show, u bet im gonna be in it....
i mean i juz dont care! i juz want my music to be heard!!!1
is that a crime?????????????????

i don't wanna say ANYTHING bout the u noe wat........
i fuck up but its the past...so past is past....im juz gonna study dis holiday.....not a fun one i think......anyway today im dressed up like a lolita so ........tomorrow we're doing cinderella.....so we hve to wake up early like her.....uh oh 4got that im making maggi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wait a sec!!!




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ok i'll write sumthin l8ter gotta go n eat the maggi!!!!

free?? i dont think so.....

yea sure tomorrow is the last day of school BUT!!! tomorrow we'll get all the paper's mark n im NOT ready yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i noe fuck up all of em im juz soooooooooooooo scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with mummy saying this n that.....that's enough to make me sick! wat if i didnt get to be in 2 cem next year? is she gonna kill me? im soo scared!! the pressure was like WHOA!!! n im only in form 1... wow....
and then we'll hve to wait 4 the actual result by post!!! that obviously wont make my holiday any better.......i just hope n hope that my prayers will be heard by God.....oh god oh god im so fucking scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

plus the pianoforte's concert rehersel ( or however its spell like..) this friday......
itz 8 till 10 p.m.!!
and its been a week since i've been sleeping without washing my face, the pimples r coming out and celebrating on my face.....

this is like the WORST week ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

miss emo/goth?

oh ok promise dis is gonna be da last post 4 today!
anyway,mommy is gettin paranoid bout me being a goth/emo n i was like wth?? since when do i say im emo? im not emo!gothic lolita she only know bout that cuz i ws singing emilie autumn's dat day......n she juz suddenly jump 2 conclusion saying im a goth/emo oh n fyi gothic n emo is not da same hon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
juz bcoz i lurve black doesnt mean im goth/emo!
sterotype

oops 4got

yup ummm oh yeah ask celina if she's performing 4 da concert n she was like oh y should i? its so freakin boring.....then last saturday when im waitin 4 my freakin drum teacher to freakin open the door, she was walkin down the stairs n see's me n went all " nad! my teacher force me to perform both guitar n choir n i was like "huh? wtevr datz cool" she went all pouty n i was like wtf is wrong with u motherfucka?



***oh change of plan, im not gonna play hero but when u believe mariah carey n whitney housten or sumthin..y cant we play mychem's song or stupid mf? paramore? hey monday? emilie autumn?
huh wat is wrong with this ppl?***

final exammmm!!

im sooo freakin scared bout the fuckin exam!! i mean u hve 2 get 40 n above so u can get into 2 cem.......im feelin soo low cuz the kh teacher being the motherfucker that she is went all "hey u didnt send the pics of diz n bla bla im gonna fuckin gve u a fuckin zero...." i was like " fuck diz motherfucka" which mean if she put a zero 4 my fuckin stupid folio i'll probably FAIL 4 my pmr!!!! y oh y do i hve a motherfucka 4 a teacher???!!!!!


damn she really get into my skin!!!!!!!!
im so freakin fuckin pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

concert...

all i evr wanted was a sold-out concert,go 2 mychem's concert & perform on a stage with a guitar in hand n i think somehow itz going to sumhow come true..lol..not like all pianoforte is going to hve a concert 4 da skool where all the students gonna perform....the teacher ask me to play hero-mariah carey abh said its a piece of cake duh he's ok wat bout me? im not like superhuman or sumthin but u noe......anyway the day b4 dat me n sis was like doing this oath bout somehow im gonna perform at cpr acousticly so yeah u can guess how my feelings r when the teacher say sumthin bout the concert....itz gonna be an all girl band...n i think im gonna be the only one who's malay there...so much 4 1 malaysia....

note to self:ask celina if she's in 4 the concert...

MyNiceSpace.com

MyNiceSpace.com

perfect prefect??

this internet is so freakin slow today

y oh y??

y must it bcome slow when im so pissed today??!

arghhhhh prefects r so freakin perfect wannabes

im gonna try 2 be one so that i wont be a motherfuckin wannabes like them.

bitch.slut.

damn im so freaking mad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuck ya

lalalaa

yay i've got a playlist!!!!

its not ipod like sis's tho

but i mean who cares?????

=p

dunno y but i feel a bit hepi today

mybe cuz i talk 2 like thousands of ppl today

tell me

u r always there to see me fall

always there to see me crawl

the main reasons y im building this walls

so come on gve me ur best shot

cuz i noe u love me not

so break me on the spot

i noe im wayward

but still im not a coward

c/o pleeze tell me wat i wanna hear

n pleeze accept me for who i am inside

come n break me but u will never win

come n take me i dont need u

so i find myself again this morning

wont think much or i'll be drowning

in my thots of u x2

repeat c/o

A Lovely Letter to Mr Aripin

Dear Mr Aripin,

do u suffer a disease that makes u always yell when there's people? do u know that singing and doing choral speaking is 2 different thing?do u always make people around u feel like dirt? even 2 ur wife? r u always lame? do u want people 2 be scared of u? cuz if u freakin do than ur way lame than i am...y do u always want to break people? y do u always wanna criticize others? dont u feel the hurt in their eyes? do u ever feel that way? no u dont!! u always wanna do everything perfect n if u thot that ur so freakin perfect then go fuck urself n get the hell out of cpr!!!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxo

nnz

buisness woman????????????????

he wants me 2 be a buisness woman?????????????????

WHO THE HELL WANTS 2 BE A BUISNESS WOMAN???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WANNA BE AN ARTIST NOT SOME FUCKIN BUISNESS WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DONT EVEN LIKE BUISNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DONT WANNA BE A FUCKING BUISNESS WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

STUPID MF!!!!

I WANNA BE A GREAT ARTIST

I DONT WANNA WORK IN SOME KIND OF WHAT DO THEY CALL IT? 9 TO 5 PACE? YEAH

I DONT WANT THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HONESTLY IM GONNA BE SOOOOO FREAKIN HAPPY WHEN HE'S BACK AT HIS OWN PLACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

am i really that bad?

Im really sad

on eid day,mommy say i hve no talent at all of becoming an artist......she say "y do u love drawing so much??? u're not even good at it" and last nite sissy said sumthin 2 her bout the band that we're thinking of doing n all she say was "yeah rite u're not even good at playing those things"

she always become sumbodyelse when her sib r around

everytime her sibs come around she always scold us

she always wear this im-a-good-mother-who-is-super-strict-with-her-kids 'tude...

i LOATHE her when she acts like that

itz like she's trying 2 be someone else everytime they come around

she always wanna be perfect in front of them

she's like trying 2 be a trophy mom or sumthin

B*tch

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

y can't he go away?????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

y do he always bitch bout others?????????????????????

y do he hve 2 be a stupid mf?????????????????????????????????????????????????

FUCK YA MF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

msi-stupid MF

this dedicated 4 a stupid mf i noe.. fuck ya!

teardrops on my pillow

i am very ANGRY!!!! i feel so down rite now......

all thanx 2 my stupid motherfucking bitch

he is soo judgemental

bitch whore he is soooooooooooooooooooooo fucking annoying and he always feels like he's always right. well fuck 2 that motherfucker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

msi~shut me up

i like my coffee black juz like my metal

The Barbie Diary

I dunno y but somehow thebarbiediary is like stuck in my head....

to those who dunno wtf it is itz a story bout a girl who had a band called charmz (trio)

and of coz itz barbie.....well she like all people is hate the popular girl :-raquelle(i think thats how they spelled it if not WHO CARES??!!) n well the usual highschool stuff n all but the story was somehow similar to mine...maybe not about the anchor thingy but anyway it juz kindda me u noe?

i wanna make a band!!! itz kindda like a duo Sar&Nad(my sis n me)

okay im making no sense here

XOXOXOXOXO