my math is not so bad after all [??!!!!]

kay i juz checked the price at bigcheesemag.com or sumthin....so yea i've done my math n all and guess what? it'll be RM36 sumthin......how the fuck am i gonna buy it now?

sigh.......i just hve to check at border's or mybe even popular.....

life sux...

think i'll go check what's the chords 4 kings and queens to cheer myself up....

whoa like literaly WHOA!!!!!!!!!!!!

30stm AND mcr in the same mag??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dunno y but im sooo effing xcited!!

but......do they sell bigcheesemag in Malaysia?
i dunno...

mybe i'll check later at border's....bet it's gonna be pricey...


kay the reasons y im soo xcited bout is..

#1 30stm is on da cover so obviously there'll be an interview with all three of em rite?
#2 there's also mychem..."studio xclusive" which mean they're recording their next album! which i hope will come out either this month or mybe next month...[hope they put The World IS uGLY IN THe new album cuz that song rox my sox]
#3 there's also blackflag!!!!



so yea i deserve 2 be xcited...=D











okayy im making no sense here...

dream THE dream

ok just finish reading my old diary it started with a happy go lucky scene , a dream n lots of smile but it ended with a suicidal girl trying 2 break free , loathness , moody and hatred for the one n only band she ever loved...

i mean like wtf??!

why? why?

everytime i read my old diary it always started with happiness but the ending will be like REALLY dark..like WTF is wrong with me?????

itz like i've been possessed by an ending demon or sumthing....

anyway, today im not gonna let them take me , dun want to let them break me apart.. i just wanna be me...


back to the one dream i always wanted cuz i believe in myself n one day i will get to achieve it..

like Bob Bryar say 'if u hve sumthing to say , then say it n be in a band for the rite reasons, to make good music n to change the world not for celebz or money..cuz itz not worth it'

how................?

urghhhh

school sux

life's a psychotic bitch

god this is depressing

life is up side down now

how am i gonna pretend like everything's ok?
how am i gonna pretend that im one happy bitch but im not?
how am i gonna live the life that is soooooooooooooooo far away from the dream that i dream?
how am i gonna pretend to not see the hurt n anxiety in their faces when i ask for sumthin tht the teacher ask for?




how am i gonna live the dream now? when the dream is crash n burn?
how oh how am i gonna pretend?
how should i pretend like i dont bother?
how should i pretend to be happy?